hmmm?!!!!

u play ur part
tasked as the masked man
hiding inside my mind
im telling u i dont like it like that
so so sew it all together
stich ur mouth shut and then try to state
to me and say along with me.. to=get= her
is all u gotsta.. got star get

to have an extra hand
so heres the plan
i am stan-d-ing more and more
closer to the call
and and i worn
u that in comparison to who u
I my.. hold it.. me hang on.. me aw fuck what im tryna say is
Im hot and u jus  a
warm worm in the bottom of a tequila bottle
wat u say is pitiful and im board of all the birds
that wanna eat u lil worm as a treat
in the morn or am
you ooo-ing thin,king u king
well then sing
a song that makes u number sunshine again

or u could just take it all away
playing this game
yeah its funny aint it
that 4 u its making money
4 me this skill is how i tell
you- i got sumthing more than
this picture of an affliction
of mr mezzing
this im sezzing the
meaning messing with the real
meaning the miss mistaken rap
raw mary and all what the alter dreams
says is what was ready
at the time ..u say i choke but in reality
u know now this is the rope to hang to
and thru to the truth
that was all she wrote
of wat is truely true
a typical note
middle c
i see my dreams
so eloquently

them up there like dancer or prancer blitz-en in bits an
most of u think u is a lamb or a ram of christ
oh shit that wasnt wise
chosen to do sumthing nice in this diced game
plain and simple usa fuckng dimple on the the cheek
of lies and sin
u think they pikd u
ill prick u with the pins and needles freak
u all pop sheep playing for history keep sakes
in this fake society
heres the rair hiar fires and there hear me rioting
while u sleep on ur feet
like a shop of treats
Im lyrically sweet'
hahahaha now wheres my beat

coz m about to loose my mind
i needa fuckng DR on time
to buy me a label of the insane kind
why do i drink this wine
when it could be water
why do i sit in yearn to learn from the master
of creational disasters im asking now the taskers
the do'ers and real real masters
this is not the plaster to hold it together

only my soul will stand
in the modern testament
of lights and signs
sirens and chymes
alarms and charms
yeah im the one ur after
comming up last to have the last laughter
haha its funny that laughter and slaughter are the same word it is jus an s
yes that would be semantically sentencing happiness to a death wish
if u get me bitch
hitch another knotch in this belt
coz i felt im winning this one
ha hun isnt it fun

celebrity calibre u see me there
thats me saying i got a shot at this
and blunt bullets ready and lined up
4 u mutts so stop the hit of disclassed crude fake arses
on my tv screen and radio
it IS death to the woman of the dream team America scene
score 1
u betta run
from war
nth korea
dosnt like what u r doing to the world
from ur westen besten hiper glipsen disn those who aint got a show
a show of shoes whos got the best well on our feet we all got atleast
two nails
jesus
dont fail me

but i think ill jus snailed all yas in ya fancy cars
yeah id ratha throw snails at you and hope it hurts
than really shot u down with this war of words

but thats not the mantra i wanted to take

so stop

before i miss my mistakes

fait remains my savor

to my taste i place 

a step into this 

with some form of grace

thank U God

weather man

swing thru the air
beautiful souls stand near
so u get to hear the new race
is disgraced as a world
yeah?
in agreement arnt we all
no im wrong well then
read the next line

u come thru looking behind ya
and over ur back while u lay flat
i stand tall with a shot of poppy syndrome
back to reaching ur goals and bits
of time that in which u can say
successes u got
u got ur way

failin into evil
here comes u.. to ur death
dying here trying
I am
so u can be gone so long
because im sick of being and been wrong

till november when the sun shines again
i gotta get sum shady shadows upon my face
thru the pain of the window
glass house smashd on christmas eve
cash injections into the heart on my sleave


so play it any way
like little children u r
and will always stay
hey hey
im not diggin my own grave
im digging urs
so u can jump in
and realise dead and gone
is where u belong

u got it yet
im doing u a favor digging
the last bed you shall sleep in
the death of u
is what the weather man predicted
so hear me know as the rain comes down
just dance and sing lalallast song ull ever know

and then to look up again
and see god
silence now
is not what we need
we need to be awakend to the realities

but u cant speak
bullet in ur back
light opens and u go down
and begin to drown
and the light turns to flames
and u realise
hell is where ur going
no surprise to me
ur successes were the sequel
to evil and the devil
if u cant beat em then join em
jim
beaming signs
now u wont be scheming
me again
and if u try to scheme the devil and his many men
ull find ur hell is the sound of flames licking ur pain and screaming dreams
thats if ur able to sleep
while the puss from ur life wounds seep
u need soap and disinfectant for ur life in the depths of hell

the lambs limbs gnna chase ya
face it u failed
so a life long time of lies and mediocrity belief systems
an option u had to be so good in ur days
and now u regret the bet u made with life

sun shining
it must be november
gone till
i remember
heat hot
crying with no shame
the dust will settle
if u get scared of hell then tell me
will u look upward in this life
its worth the walk at the end in to the light
so u dont end in the fight of heavens opposite home
and inside out we all here to show the truth the way and the light
so stop the pity full fight
dont belive everything u hear
coz we are here so be good to this ground that everyday ur feet step on
be kind to the people u see and meet
dont judge the collarmen and media as gospel

incessantly is the fickle man, making his plan
so tune changes and the following the real rules
the rest of these verses were found



and then the weather man made one last prediction
of a love for life love of the beat
love for height
love for the right
love of earth
the love of our birth to beauty
people see
we are the heaven lost to be found again
if we cant find it here
where are u going
another life reincarnated time to repeating the tick of the clock face
new lesson on ur new street
another shot at faith and controlling ur fait in this hard life
advertising gets amongst ur brain
persuasion of the truth in this creation
makes me sick ever day

walk in the nature
run into the future
be ur truth
to meet the maker
of the true in this creation
walk as an angel does
toward the life in which wealth is about holistic health

monetary wealth isnt the aim
thats just the white collar mans game
media shame

music gain
true representation as to where the world is at
dont party like its ur last life
love like its ur last life

im no tool in the game of money money money
im more than letting myself sell out for the wrong time
i will claim my place though
here is where i stand
dont need your money to hold my hand
money is my tool
im not a tool  to money
he money
she money
we money
we all gotta be money makers
but we dont have to be fakers

thats why i thank this land
spirit show them thats what we gotta understand
ur out there reaching and paying a fee to be pretty
here teaching the biggest lesson all for free to create tru wealth and perfection
souls are our true teachers
ur soul got sumthing to say to u so fucking listen

the mist of the falculty of evil deeds
is winning this
when it was due to lose
u gotta be true
wait stop dont shoot
i had a dream

to live another way
so lets give it a go
i may be a dreamer of faith
that may be my flaw in our time
i know though im heading higher for good

i had a dream
GOD and I will walk thru the gardens of heaven
i had a dream
that this creation survived "US"
i had a dream
that the world was made of love
i had a dream
GOD is proud of our survival
i had a dream
and so we all did see
truth and beauty

love all
xoxo

if i ever could say the sky would die, id say it was because the ground didnt sing in the skys day anymore. all because we used to speak their stories.. but now we just look at the tales of the gods like theirs is a "no more" kinda sound.
some say wats lost will still stand proud, until the day we are ready to talk of them again.
not of then but of now we must start to speak.

http://lucydiamonds88.blogspot.co.nz

all of what you have read here...its not the true depiction of who i am on a day to day basis.

but what would you do if you were in my position.

ive already lead you to understand some of my mind state.

so..here is my placement.

you're sane....but then for months at a time you discover other "entities" in your mind. and they want out. these entities want ur mind and body to live in as they choose. your soul now has to fight.

you say things and do things that aren't you.

your character, your mind, thoughts and your spirit of being, somehow stolen by the devil.
basically you, your person as you know so well, isnt being displayed.
the person people have loved isnt around anymore, or is just unrecognisable as being you.

FIGHT.

FIGHT FOR YOUR MIND

no matter how much in your soul you know your still in there. in that body of yours, in that mind of thoughts, somewhere is your own mind sight.
i never let go of the knowledge that it was my life and i would get my spirit back my mind back and my body. i would get me back to normality. i was strong in this knowledge even when i had no control of the paths my mind took.

yet sometimes i had to just run with what my mind presented to me as a possible reality.
although dangerous as it is to loose urself in insanity.
its more dangerous to struggle with it agressivly. its tiring and the result is falling deeper into the fear and paranoia, delusions and pain.

a negative response denotes a negative outcome. a positive aproach maintains and strengthens a positive outcome.

even when i fell into my insanity, it was clear to me that it wasnt sumthing i had argue with. why argue in ur mind just because u disagree with ur thoughts.
its a process of CHANGE and CONTROL but whats greater is its a CHOICE. to CHOOSE to keep a underlying quiet message to urself that its not true.
I DO NOT BELIVE IN THESE DELUSIONS.

it was easy for me once i realised it. a delusion is a dream while ur awake. seemingly more real because ur 100times more aware of the deam/delusion being played out.



SO..... why this blog
i wanted to let out these "entities" in away that i could control it so it dosnt come raging back into my mind with a vengeance.

i knew it would be a way to let go of it. letting go of falling ill to stages of insanity.

when im insane... im insane, but im still aware of reality.
when im sane... im sane. and thats reality.

insanity isn't permanent.

dont judge me because ive been "mentally unwell"

if you gotta judge, be in my life and take a closer look before you do judge.

funny thing is outa all my rantings in this blog.

this is probably the closest look ive alowed to be seen.

dont know if its a wise move or not.

never mind if its not.
probably safer than some of the thing ive written being seen.


SO THATS WHY,
AND (WHY) WILL  ALWAYS LEAD US TO A MORE KNOWLEDGABLE TRUTH.

TRUST THAT

XO

really?!

introducing. haha!

sarah is my birth name
lucy is me
diamond is emotional and good
gloss is diamonds twin as lucy is to sarah
miss vixen is the raw rapper
sez is the nic that spits
now u get all of me and u beeen waiting for more of thiis
4 views 2day and i wish who u are u like waht u see.
what ur seeing is the beggining of an effort to get outa here
and to where sez speaks
i gave myself 7yrs thats till im 30 and im getting there
from the east of this land.. but left here living in the west. feeling outa place and outa home where do u go when u gotta speak more than what u walk
to the lords door i look to u
am i better at he poetry or the rap whats the difference when u talk the truth of how it is
reality bein its here and the rawity is the rush whether ur whoteva
dont forget where u stand but where ur from
i know who i am and i know where im from
wairoa wish i was home.
for the most of this i got more to say
but ur gonna run away coz at this time ur reading wats hot and not at the ease of ear
stay with me as thia is history in the making listening to snoop, but being so underground.. i dont even have a beat yet
of my own
i will crawl
i will stuble
i will the walk
i know i will stand strong
and in wondering how not to fall i know better
not even at a height able to fall from yet

trailing all to find my place  to set my feet but nowhere feels sane and safe in mind
so there it was and how much laughter in ur eyes
ive found so much of me but
how can this be that i still cant see
well check me in is it  loving the music
and knowing im gonna make ya crazed ya
missd matched words never meant a thing
so ur wondering if i can sing
music is me
love is never freedom
so dont forget to be
and if u  cant be in ur love .. leave


really is that right?!

father  ..master of what we all here know is good..
(women, drink, ladys and greenary,isnt that right b/oi)
making this happen some other day
as of now its easy to be this.. but to get further im looking up to find alil star that aint been seen before.. what on im looking in the mirror and finding that diamond star shining so far..so glossed up
i want u to now this aint the half of life, the others beyond those golden gates of heavens doorway
the roads long but hardly at all, is it sumthing that we talk? wen it should have been/ wen we r not sposed to be here much longer. .
does that old king Jesus still seak.. retired of whats higher we will find
this is just the time
travelling up....all my life flying by in ur mind
making anyfool look behind and the good guy fall
thats what i do with words that ull kick the bak of the ball jus to find that game u playing was all by urself.. ur lifes nuthing compared to me
miss vixen and diamond breaking what sez threw ur way
and u thought u could say shot to the peple but that mess on ur face must hurt as ur hustling ur way through life just like my man does for me to have what i need.. but thats not whats important its music art and a hiher faith.. muny may be sumthing we need to live in this world.. but in more important eyes its the faith of whats higher.. u or me.. i can bet my blunt today was bigger than the words u speak.
mary jane bleeding into me poor bitch dont realise her life will neva be ova coz we all love her.
saint mary magdalene loved jesus but what happen to her reputation after her doing what it took to survive, most christ lovers frown upon her when she was blessed enuf to evn be that close to him. none of us can say int his life we have had that kind of respect from a king.

speaking is this.. talking is tales of wit and this messed up space.




 i wonder why.
if i fly to you
anywhere in the world 
one more time
if i cry
you would too
and when the sun sets 
so does the turn of tunes
isnt it time we started to make for a new way.
if u care should u dare to state that 
and the way that it should be
just like ud like to see it


stop living a lie with the way u stand there shaking ur head. before ur even asked to make a stand. a step up from where u stood before

raw mary

i have found you
looking through glass doors




what am i gnna put on this one


heres diamond im ready
now

do it do this

i got what they call the way, /
a ladys sway she..walks, talk../
im a lil dirty manner
 can u cope / roped in
with the raw/ truth of waht
/ i really want to say/
so well here it goes its filth/k
and this is gnna go/
 up beyond diamonds words..
 im gonna have ta call on the worst /
of me and all my alter egos.
. miss vixen is here to drop it to the top.
i dont wanna have to say this..
but play this


droping  beat .u think
think i cant make it saaw/
sour  grap
/u say ah ha na im thats u.
sweeter than carameled suga.... is me
the taste of me is more than a wild wonder in this world
 infact its the top 10 platnum wonder of this world diamonds child not for ur destiny but a select few of wisdom sitting in the tree of greenary. vip i will be with this beat

high as a lady killer everyday so how well can i do it to this sheet

straght down the middle is where i got it/
 where i will always want it everyday now. ill make ya grab ur lackerd sac and hard handle that.. mass mess u made from the wandera days

cum on..shot in her face..chased down with tequela and lime.. its time to watch only wats fine...missed mine.. diamonds trix on miss vixen. wondering why i gotta get myne im on time..sori ma if ur questioning this.. if its imbarrasing u sori again this is wat i gota do with my madness inhead..my names diamond miss vixen gloss watever u wanna call me my names sarah lucy thats the boss of this. shhhot



so dont shy away from this street... gaurd the shokt top step to the place before where u whept just spose i swept u away with the things i say

well i have i know dat
not hard to figure out away

to find this music up in my day and in ur face.. in ur head is where im seated but not for long soon well be up in the club... shorty they say do ya thang
swang that ldy killa swag on while ur
all ryt

stop


drop

topd and rolling
joint
smoked
toked and calling

mary jane i love that name

superwoman and her games


ego

we all have grab it an gravitate toward ur dreams. me im in my ego when i write but thats not me in everyday life.

its my way to treat me how i love to fear id be treated. learning do i dont have to cry when i lie in bed on my own.
this truth i own, and here id like to say its not all raw and ruff its raw reality of this old slut as sum would look down in on my life and assume i am, raw reality shows that this life is not all i am. i could succesed again, i could reach my dreams again. i could train my speech to be somethin of meaning.

but instead i  ri riot this rot of truth about the life i live and whats actual and the raw reality..im not sur i like my everyday but thats just ok coz theres one in my daily li-high life, miss mary the green healer inhaling and making me choke in my dreams laking motivation and jus chillin no matter the weather whether or not my brain rots im smoking away those catchable dreams, the paper and the green dream seems to be what i choose. when i look twice it dosnt seem like it shoulda been my life.

insanity in every song diamonds not on this moment of grown stories in this straight track forwards, ur listening to what sez saying it twice it cuts deeper than any knife, its soul pain to know yes ill say it again do i sacrifice my brain for this life, just to smoke up what boredom brings

trix in everystep in this life sumones fooling you, dont be suprised to find these words instead of what was introduced to be filth..by vixen. it seems raw marys dreams stop short of the oceans and what from the otherside you could see.

in any form im here to dance and feel joy again, its movement form the soul. i will retuen. and raw mary will always deture me while i let that be, i shouldnt complain, my life aint so hard. ive learnt how to see the ego in me. raw mary take me away one last time.

the tRAP

U got nething to say that aint nething other than stank rap yeah im about to degrade my words as bad as you do and say that your words are as bad as that stank rap saying shit that mytas well  be smelly meat. While here when I put that there its worth just what I speak to be listened to.

Oi fuck that’s where music has got to singing bout spaggetti and  meetballs. Im gonna change that chore in my airways. Listing to you is a bore. It’s a War on my mind thinking that music is sposed to be revolutionary not polutionary to our way of being.

And there u go again saying bby im bak say that before I snap, insane in my fucking brain and I don’t give up the chains u place around me. Coz those chains im rattling in ur head.

and u know the worst thing about this lil story is that im bord with the way u walk and then again ill state im bord with ur old game.

Time to step up to the mark u set with the first brain dead lp. Well in opinion of diamond yeah me, im switching u to -missed the spot , or was it mr what?

Yeah that’s what im saying whats wrong today ladies, under wea are u hiding that fucking hip pop rap shot in ur top spots im gnna knock down that fucking peddastool  u think ur safe on. One sound on every second trak is just annoying nik tik on the bak of my neck.

Retaliation of the state of American nations. Winning the prize of fame , claiming only hoe town games. With men that expect just the same.

Currpting youth with the enticement of ur so called sophisticated lives. Try on a soft cut of cloth that covers ur twat then ill think twice about calling u suga da da dum and hoe hound. Impounding ur sound to the class of time to say goodbye again and never to return. Oh brain draining music go away and never come again not any other day. 

Take that lumpsumit and find a solution a resolution …did rap really come from the soul isn’t it poetry in the modern world,?

coz that’s not what im seeing or hearing from u its all the same party time world throw ur hands up and get low.

don’t drive that shit slow I wat u to know I go hard if u wanna c me make u proud I could stand rite next to yall and find u all fall while I stand tall,

even though its the og shorty al whyt and while u stunt and swag ur way round the world in ur costume.. tighter I could make my skills but while im here im gnna do this rite and write this.  this way is how u will get it otherwise ud be mezmorised by my style.

That even I fall into the trap of rapping that type of rap im saying is so boring ova and ova again have I gone on all night ud see me swite speak write when only its allright.

Sweet dreams masters and so called queens. Here I go with my style of swag up in ur zone and u don’t know if u wanna accept that this is the best ive found just for now I never said it was forever so don’t look that way at me especially when Im in a beat and swing of tha cut pick of ur rut

then step up of ur toes and onto walking on water. So up there lifting u to be levertaing when u hear what I do coz that’s u know who lucy in the sky with diamonds bound to make you high.

and in the eyes of who u speak which is urself u see, u think u can fucking fly with ur slap swag on whats that u say fuck figurit,  slap swag is the way a woman hits aman when she puts here booty walk on that’s if she aint a skeleton on the cat walk. Coathanger figure is not me curved from top to thigh ,that’s knotch ten on the whats good bout diamond now belt that ive hit u with

Well well how high now can I take you. To space fool and beyond. Stars shine and u cry now uve herd my fool song dedicated to the revenge of dragons yet im a tiger pounceing when im ready not when u think u should click those fingers rub a lamp and magically I appear wouldn’t that be not fear. Do so I am working at this .taking time before time falls

well when it becomes unsuperficailal and becomes to be speaking of ways of whats here in our world and beyond ill ask forgiveness from you for this mix. 

now

 bow sit or squat.. im sure they thaought ud rot.. apparently not..na, neither should one like this..its mine.. its dumb.. if not the only one.. emphasis on, dumb one.. ah fuck wot... take a ba}ow na}ow. meow..haha just for laughs..jfl wat u gonna do now u need a new hit.. before u take anouther bow take a stand again.. then again.. on flip sides wheas my nudda...tkaing me wen i cant speak...ill ariva wen ive the ride up. thats the then yet this is ur now..or not blonde agian show on thoughts gone.. heres the all write written colapse of ya and rise of ah up to nuffin. nice and im gone


ill write to u.. 
and then
there was where i am now
never dissapearing now
or ever
i love here
but i dont like here when i look ahead to there
or backwards to when then was that
and thats wha ti expect when one looks bak to see it as that 
if i could ever remember what it was that i apparently enjoyd
just blank space in my mind 
i needa fill that void
i cant keep this up
sacrificing my brain for this life
id say that line too many times but i dont want to live that line anymore 
i know now i needa take i bow or curtsy allil for what ive come through, i shouldnt have my brain my mind and now i do im questioning the blank knowledge places and then theres these voices that fill up the other half.. i dont desrve this do i.. am i really that ethacally and morrelly wrong down the drain in my brain and ways that i live ar how i see life im too selfish so he tells me.. am i too beleve this well now im not in denial about the lies. i can tell u yeah i am, but aint that the recipe for success they say being a lil self absorb is the material that makes for a leader.. they know how to push throiugh difficulties in life a lil resiliant not bitter though for having to learn that resilliance and 'cold hearted head ways" to get here in this space im unsure if these are actually my feet standing on this bed. whoa this tigers gna creep the pounce in this world cant u see miss vixens not mad mat(e)


i can hold you for as long as ull let this be
if it was up to me
hed let me get this out so i dont go on believeing it anymore
if i write it inseated of living it in my head
wouldnt that be wise in these lives of mine 
so bad its not good
i think i myt have ta find that fairytale life
whoa
through the speakers again i find the pain in me
oh o
whoa
o
wha no
na o
oh o


why do i love this so much i needa know that this now is the begging of this how it could be seen its me in u and im happy to tel anyone thats listening how much i know u as u. and how im proud of us finding eachother in this crazed world... minds of a soilder life of a criminal... the mistakes uve pulled me into seeing and not having to go through again....from knowing and learing u... if i could live nearer to u i would. if only others knew i was talking to u. angel u r to me. e<3ry Single TIme..i miss u.


i wanna know i dont know u at all,,, 
yet ther is much more time but every day gone by is a day im not by ur side in every way we wish.. move on......
please dont but yeah shit i jsut did that and u thought i wouldnt but i did just to say i could do. sic


this bit
the last of it
snapped hit and whippt
distressed mess of the realist mixed chaotic spinner inthis maker creator father faith i have but my walls a shrinking in on me in this life. please. ive got the steps on this trak and thats made rite.. buy this life not the devil in me hate not with me or this voice that likes ta look my way.. id walk by if it took that but there are other ways to play ive given myself a start in getting used to having an audiance.. clouded it is its still a start when shy used to be ur way,, ur learning al lil bout me today . reversed it could have been but i know not what u wish to see of me. the distruction or curruption upon my life ive inflicted on myself,, but how would fait have worked for us if it wasnt this negative outcome of lines in life. hands and swords.. now below this balloon.. up in the strut of ya.. poped that ego busted oh why.. look down on me everyday, faith boi is all i gotta say/ ur not as old as i thought my friend. dont think things are rite in ur mind either by the sounds of things.,. the lotto luck gotta go to find ur lust its faith and a must.  musk or sumthing more green and grown to be stronger than we thought did u think it would happen to u coz i know i was warned and didnt believe a fucking word.. the futer was brighter than its turned u as. 


to leave on that note when really this is a blessing of gifts if i was to believe what that talk with god was about. walking through his garden sight in my mind as if it were a dream and i was awake it was and i didnt listen.. in shok at what was going on. thanks for the image of light. 
 imean it
dont fight fait 

i wanna type sum nice poetry 4 me n u. but fuck it it not wats wanted to be expressed from this minds emotional times... herts hearts and heads dont mix well ya see..so make it more than that... make it this.. next bit is me writing wanting ta sing..singing quetly...writing the dream slowly. designing the dreaam engraved into me. if it was then and this is now here was there after or before being on that square, curcle working the qurk of life, wife i wish to be but that means playing nice. put down that knife dont do dat again.. oneday you could find ur truth.. takes time tho.. and there u go.. that was my attempt to drop the suiced rates..im not one to sing of that 45 gun...no murder in my book..death, isnt sumthing to give to urself or sumone else....death is givin by god.. have some real faith.. dont lill in the name of. y u y do y get to? just for selfish minds,, to fix that crime upon his head, he should be dead.. fuck no. whoa white joe put down that gun,, whoa black joe put away that thought of deadly fun. immune to it you may be,, but that knida thing aint for the god i see. that flag may have ur hearts colours.. but that flag dosnot make u a law unto urself.


{{labled the savage of my gurls
protcting was wat i did.. from those creepy men wanting one thing.. if u wernt so lucky ur arse slap would result with u and a hit up in ur face.. no slap hit back.. but jabbed as i laughed...so the mentality was there just not to the extent of one with the same casual approach to killing oneself or another.}}


wat a day in this machine. if i could describe it to its full extent i would.. but like Heaven not a being could do this day justice. until i grow old ill hold onto that gratitude i heve. never letting this dissapear.. onto this i hold. breath

with all the strength of the creator ..than..this created machine



you you inspire may u inspire june.. in reality u inspire me in every month and moths that fly by in the nights light... u inspire to rid the wrath..


taking last dances
taking too many unsure chances
risks without conciqunce in my thought
wrong lookout
dance past times lady tik tok
dance past the sun
serene

to find just that a return to the classic of writtin word turned into rap.. if u would readit in that tone
all of it all of me,, this is it didnt u know.

i wouldnt call wat i feel an inadiquit thought or sumthing about nothing... it jus takes u a while to read it write. over 400 sumthings now come visit summore..or sumthing give u sumthing to do..
ah fuck that like thats wat i wanted to do sumthing sumthing sumthing is you that i should do. . b dats u.
i want it crazy like u cant belive and thats how u give to me . excitment on every turn in every day.. and then theres ur nice arse oooh.

seriously all yo' out there..ya chains are nice.. chain aire.. million arie....billions dare..to just live dick....straightfward shit mitchs... millionaire bitchs.

down here finding so much to wait for to reach my dreams. you say i couldve by now.. of that im aware thanks for the faith... but dirty 30 sits nice with me... more...down here below finding abovities being this aboveness and wha tthat seems, above me..above u

mixed

me n u could make cute, speak wildness, me n u culd make sweet ,drown u in insane, yeah me n u could make for a greater understanding that if any, only few can.
make time for me in those future plans even if its jus as a bitch you say , na my position working up in the world the rite way. one day ill be there in the only way planned because thats jus what u promised u could. if only i would. ur there im here so whats left but up in our heads, dreaming if only we could, me n u could make soundful musical magic more than the blessings weve been handed, this skill got me screaming, making dealings beyond compare but reality this is not here, to be heard as what this stands as.. diamonds got miss vixen and tangled the two in time ull see,, this is all just me sarah lucy miss perry miss vixen diamond and gloss princess of light shinning now with too many names just for extra pleasure after the alter egos gone how much left is me. does it matter that this is some blessed thing it seems so so now goodbye.

Take this each day, you get ta see me..in a real reality. All I see is you sitting as fame. In this game plan im as sane as ‘ever’ could provide…if ever the truth sings thru. I could say im proud but yet to see is the result so can pride even come into it, yay a ah na,


yes this is the bit that tells you, you cant ask me just wat ur thinking with out offence been taken,, coz i know what ur wanting and im not so sure..ur gnna get nuthing more than a smile. so go walk away in ur stride with the little pride urve got left, 


making u drive faster in that seat that u claim is ur fun, bought from the dollas urve grown. Puffing up in wat u see.

Its not what u were thinking this must be diamond, im still tryna find the divide between her and the dream miss vixen.. vix entering to get ur fix of shot unto the wall of living beaming deemed classes above the rest. Up to the best to see where this could go.. hoe. oh no..not the vixen in me.

Vixenised before your time.. this is the begginging and beyond diamonds fine lines….sez u spoke up in the rawest realest to provoke sumthing to rage the mind more than dope.. or the dopest. Mistakes are made in these faces. Yet success can be seen in one face left to dream…

Short an sweet its not easy to be when urve broken so many hearts…taken apart ur own soul for doing so…

Making this one last till the last laugh tears us apart

If you could step into this markd spot, making u go go go boi into my start breaker placement could be urs in this hot tub next to miss vixen into you for sure I could just say theres more than two im into you. Making you go go go boi for me. Oowe how it be that I could say this to you without a care in the world.. well well well that’s jus how I know ya see, youd be, if there were another way to be and to see.

I could do this big life.. living life above the ground walking all the way down to be seen like the sun hot beyond fireing heat, liking these chains but im wanting sapphires and diamond rings.. I want ta act in a life I know about..not this game of battles surviving on a blessing and a prayer.

MISS VIXEN enters

if u cant see wha tthis paper looks like in my wallet and into the tiller today i got wat i want. wagy woble not on ur hands this is miss vixen........ missed dimond lost her top N TURNED IN TO THE  gloss  speaking making u wnder past the shops straight to my ass. making u wonder how u ever lived without... me as diamond or vixen miss... put beautifully im the world of gurls represented in one body i make naked look like free fire. wen i move i lik like i like ryt up u. top to toe or toe to top of the place inm which u believed it was wrong to be spoken of. but i am the feminest of today so why c ant i be as does by a man obn a daily strive. knotches uo on that .. i tredated them worse than they couldve treated me as their hoe is what they hoped... yet.. haha they they they were mine mine ... unwanted trash up on that ass.. mixed in my glass vodka lime an and diamonds lemonade asked glossed up miss vixen approaches and the music saved u look at what was gaved.given.. never before this kinda liven mixen miss vixen!

something nice for you.....

havent done this kinda writing for a while..
hmm this is weird world..something becomes the "norm" ...for who/
you? and i also!
so to attempt/ i shall say/ i will not try at all/ a sense of fear it poses/ so to attempt ..i will be on my way..as u find this left behind ..please ask y?(to urself) .
...dont ask y im here this time/ u dont wanna know the tale behind the tiger pouncing on her pray/im gnna get this game/ my nirvana cards arnt falling at my feet)
these temptations in the way i say this... im jus serenading with styles classd as from above what u reading....
or say it this way/ these expectaions of my own/ these choices/ i will not forget...

regret i want not to know

thus making for a learning...in a happiness of how to grow.
i ask thee not for an opinion just acception of the facts... yes...i could say it all nicely.... and put it through to u like light...or what? u may ask... /is for lightning to strike /done it could be if this truedom/ with thus/ thought place we find ...learning what you need to know in ur true soul.... truedom...a place u should know/ just think about ur real wants/
ask deeper literally / for a space in between the right shoulder /left heart/ (head/mindspace)/ and solar plexus..k

and that was nice wasnt it ?! 

diamondsez xo

put eminem on and see what happens please in need a beat......

ouch my head hurts from this shit
mummy should i cry to u again that im insane up hea in this nora mal cee
25yrs gone and my spirits more than strong for what i got ta give so hea we go again...

my ears are ringing... but i bet not as much as yours wen u hear me singing... coz u know im the best at this ... so switch the alarm off bitch and put ur head at rest.. and just listen to whats been sed.../i sed im the best/ bitches/ so dont even try and deny urself...the listening pleasure/ when im saying this/u cant fight/ what?/ wat ur soul knows is ryt/ ur mind is asking u how she can do this/ but you know what to do/ jus shut up and let it flow ryt through you/

ooooo!!!! :P

now u got me on a mad rant..skank!/ yeah you thats who... think i cant talk coz i neva been in ur shoes....i dare you to ask wat i been through...
go on try me?!
":but shes white G" is she?
yea funny that....is there abit of racist shit up in ur mind or perhaps a steriotype for this kinda life writing..rap this! :P
look deeper and understand that these hear wordscame straight outa gods plan...so take a second look doughting wat u seeing too/ yea im a lady not a bitch arse.. (like what u see wen u look in the mirror at ur face) look in ur eyes i suggest u give it a try ...windows to the soul.. ...memory space..i lost ya..so(s) so "i say lots ya.."
u know by the time u put this on for a second tym....and actually recognis that line...as a direct order...or suggestion...i bet you wanna take a look at whats behind this life.....look at ur own i told ya...but looking at me ..isnt it interesting what u see...


diamondsez xo         

point to note......Em sign me x

hey the alarm clock is ring..in/ inthis and this is jus what i feel is ryt this minute only the posible option for me/ "wont back down" thea i finnaly gave u the ansa to the fucking ringin shock /clocking ths the best way to mesure this is a wont bak down shit think this hot i aint even gonna ask?!1!.... if u got it ? (2) if u want it i can do this so yes all this in our time is happening man i know ur making a diffrence u think i take too long/ well i cna tell u this is not just my card..on no now it is hea 4sure..this a start u neva made..sing to me one more time? i appreciate our powers so lets make this chicken chowder instead of chickshit asswholes!!! read that twice thats what i sed this is me and our dreams so(s) kl/let /not u can(t)/ so be proud, stand tall/ i can ...and he got that bit so shit hea again i tel u ur thougts are not what makes u but i no u hearing what i say i want it this way for all of us ..so make it true- its my favourite word but i guess not yet do u wanna know that bit..but i got so much more so drop my thought let it be.., let u listen and c what u hear?

Diamondsez xo

diamond style!!! comp entry for (the game) -"pot of Gold "- as seen on fb

diamond style!!! comp entry for (the game)  been home ...aint nothing i wanna leave....
but that pot of gold got me/... searching up in my mind and up in this life/ for whats left to find?...
. upon this place of mine .before we part more/ lets make this tru war.
/.peace/ we should be fighting for /..inside each of us /we want that dolla gold. ...
real worth is so much more .... inner wealth/ be ryt here /in all of us ..
.thats the  real / pot of gold.. /. it comes with peace but in pieces we seem to be.
.. land and skies lie before me/ yet still i c the truth/ u dont (seem to) see the seems that need mending// as i sed u are living dead wrong/ look beyond ur fucking self..

find ur own...rainbow..with ur real/ pot of gold... ur true soul

as promised...poetry

this first one was written 15/10/09
others undated but im sure its '09 stuff until the last one....

take note word of the day; WITHIN! :)


{a new book
a new begining
a new journey}

a task but such a journey
to continue to write
when i cant even talk to you

...

im so drained and im not quite myself
now that ur not around
i could say i dont know what i feel
when really iknow quite well what ive found

a new sence of self
myself
to be in the future
a self truth .. never alone
coz i have myself within
more than before
 i'll know
infact
now this is it
im aware
this desision
to be alone
is the better road
4 my within.. self.

4 a way to begin
and go and grow
to get rid of ur pain
insane by you,
thats not my life
not my road
im not gonna stand on ur road
you can travel alone
or with someone else
but it wont be me
involved in ur rain ..pure pain,
im not gonna stubble anymore on my road
im not gonna stumble along
i'll be fine
this shining sun
is mine
myself within!



/////////

beautiful musical notes
floating in my airwaves
for each day
could i have seen
could i have heard (this)
without you
beautiful musical notes


////////

can i ever
look at you the same
see in the good again
within ur name

can i ever
take away the blame
see in the good again
within ur shame

/////

branded within
standing without
how to win
when in this predicament

how not to fall
when to complete
with such a grace,
patients and place

inside fighting wild
no longer a child,
lost and incomplete
wanting to cut this ribbon
walk through this,
knowing all would be forgiven

is it eva gonna happen
so walk tall
i hear the voice speak,
within my disgrace
embraced

to be reliving (reborn)
amongst tortured coils
of the living
still i watch the sun rise
and know it wont be our demise

///

begging for true love
down put please ur sin
we are living,
at a cost
but need not,
it be a loss

/////and ryt now..

thus.. love the real self..
of your person.. human BEING
be who in which u were born
a soul for growth upon lands
u are more than wats wrong
u are more than whats right
u are real here and now
and tonight
please remember
life is beyond earths pain
yes be-yond
youth in mind
yearn for more
in ur name
of this time
we are not wrong
we are beings in waiting
for much much more
love peace and harmony
within ur reach


Diamondsez xo

i know i promised poetry..but.. this wats been coming to me..

i wanna be me and know ive sed tym and tym again i dont.. im telling u now i do...
coz of wat i can do so easily i gana make a fool outa all of u.. who think i dont now know nothing..
i know so so much more than ne of the rest of you oh no..
u wondering if ill get to the point soon na dont plan on it at all so put up with that this is just my expression thing before u ask im as good as the man named EM... my voice from the begining.. who loves me toooooooooooo
ive neva let out to so many people..
all about my insane tym up in my brain things were pretty funny..
but my 1st "voice" spirit friend was yeah what i sed before heas that verse all ova again but in a differnet way cant u see im fine but i think its aabout tym i explaind my life in these lines... sooo "shorty.." he sings to me  "..i love you..." but this is all i wrote ha!
so.. all u readin this reading all i wrote..
this all i can do when i aint got a  label (record label that is) to sign my insane brainy plan plane plain Plato plate so take these words and watch this happen ryt writing ryt from the begining i state i am the woman eminem... so u wondering why this way.. i say its all i got but its not all i got all at the same time...

 bless those who are stil there after all the insanity of me but i wouldnt be this spirit without what happened to me.. GOD i praise u for the cards u gave me i can only hope im playing them ryt.. and response being YES .. GOD YES this is RYT WRITTEN writting my fight ...

so wrong in this place but i face the worst thing to make a change that ull all understand in the LORDS biggest plan.. me up thea next to em .. no more invisible friends its tym those spirit projections in my evryday took a new look at this thing called diamond or as i used to say die mind but thatss no more what i want, wantn what ive got to become visible to everyone so if ur confused think about the echos u hear i know uve all heard me speak in ur ears! telepathy my friends is a real thing its just no one talks about the posibility that if we used more than 5% of our brain power what could be possible

 by the way wen u read this put some marshal mathers on and see if it works to the beat.. its a test find the song i was inspired by when i wrote this absolute fire writing in the devils dimise ill take this evil and turn the devil / lived into last life in this evil shit hell to ever stand ive talked to the devil and he wants to be a good man.. again a chance at life should one give.
. jesus for our sins and the devil seems to live satan here i write for u natas i will now call u.

 and say good bye the past i hear you cry join my revolution written on mirrors to get this shit out its seems a bunch of weirds yeah u heard ryt weird words if they can y cant i too put a whole lotta shit in this place and see if i can cause a riot in the name of peace oooooooooooo

hahahah whats the "o's" for?
 the o's are for affect im an effect thats gonna affect ya face and how u face the world ur everyday wil change once u now know my name its diamond yo yo yo haha :)
as happy as the slap i gave that men wen he had to say tha lack of trust coz of my past and reputation found i got my ass actual my neck strangle blacking out and hell .."miss this bitch now".. uve lost who ?,.... ..
..the best BITCH in the fucking world "GANGSTA" ??? ah na issac states "too pretty to be gangsta"
LMFAO im crazy does that make me normal in the current world we find we are all so all-one.al/one. try been me i have spirit friends.. and a lable of phycotic! but a kid i was that saw auras until i seven and now they wnna tell me i cant have an invisible friend at the age of 25? haha
they are now puting 2yr old childern on anti phycotic medication for that very fact seriously what are we teaching these pepole whoa re in control of what our brains are meant to be... why cant these kids get spirtual help instead a pill for a GOD GIVEN SKILL so so wrong ill be puting all my fights against thes drs into abook DRS take alook infact i myt just email the community menal health team my link and see what comments i get..
it took 6 male DRS and NURSES to hold me down and sedate me inject this into ur own vains u suckers u lacking direction its called ur soul.. holistic medicine would tell u u are so so wrong with what u labeling .. its people we are not a mental fucking illness did u ask what i know ohh i have faith in the lord but u betta not talk to him thats insane bitch..
 u myts well be the devil tryna tell me i aint got no soul.. u wrong DR ASTON i tell u y ask abitch thats sic if it ok to give her a label /// i was so sick of been in that room i just agreed with anything u sed..
 and then al of a sudden i was schitzophrenic and if this seems like i still am na its just if id been given the chance to be understood my family wouldnt think im still a mad bitch.. wen ryt now i put ur asses on fire id fire u if i was GOD!!!!
and guess what i am real at this and this is a real story in brief .. just wait for the book i requested my medical records and it sez i took heroin u fucking lyers did u eva ask me if that was real or do u think u can put nething in my permanent records ive neva touch that fucking shit im that stupid fuck what did u think i was nieve that id neva look into what u were writing about me..
well i have a copy of all of it except for the shit that u think i cant handle hahaha my records and u still hiding some from me. o well at 3 and a half inches thick i  think  ill be reading that shit oh yea and ill be looking into the privacy law as to what u can withhold from a labeled bitch this shit bout me i have every ryt to have it!!! im gonna get it too.. coz i got a point to prove! listening now im mad at u but not insane yea rediagnosed as a temopary illness of phycosis but its not gonna last according to the drs up hea in aucks!
i dont wanna leave u readers thea in the middle of my angry rant!
but i myyt just have ta!
i needa go and do some yoga to rebalance my energies whoops should believe thats even possible myt be a part of my label.. assholes! im gonna get on tv and talk about this! so watch ur moves a 2yr old on pills so so wrong!
and if u wondering how i no that it was onthe 6oclok news
and it seems im not finished yet... just waiting for a positive one poetry i wasnt even aloud a pen in the high needs unit of the mental place!
how was i sposed ta get out what i wanted.. i couldnt ah so what happened instead i spoke it well yeah in that drug fuckt state it didnt make much sense but now been sane i got lyrical ability to be this expression for all those who be in my position or who will be in the near future!

" high functioning!" they called me and i always will be try my height of functioning when im not insane id be worryed u little drs in ur narrow trained minds diamonds hea and this is whats to be said ...truth!
they asked me once "do u hear voices?" my response " if my thoughts are voices ...yes i do?!" they let me outa hospital that day.. defeat.. they to gave me bak my handbag with my oil and pin!! hahahahaah defeat again im gona beat u bastard reatard.. ur the ones who need a label that kills ur respect for urself!!!!! im diamond and ive figured u lot out drs
i gota go.. ill be positive next time.. just been dying to get this out!
weight on shoulders no more
thank you

Diamondsez xo

freestyle writing from early june '11

and you thort u knew me
you didnt think id do this now did you

fighting fires in the places of random words
-birds flying past my eyes
-crying dying inside..wondering why... do i find this life aint mine?
gotta live it tho.. just for a lil more tym to conquer the battle of this minefield, (reeled) in wot others said.. making this the last laugh in all of ya heads..
and a smile on ur face..brings me outa space
4 real ... takingup the waste of these thinking downward spiral games.. im not playing but yip {yes} i will be saying and staying and paving my way with the little that ive got here in my day.
skills, drills.. drip feed the exicution of the destiny..my word polution.. loud..
understanding .. making ya ears ring..heads think .. souls sing
here i give what i can bring
over to the next line..
wine.. and wondering why birds fly?
seriously not giving a shit.. we all die.. up to the skies they say one day we will all be!

the other nyt...

u think 2000 and 11 yrs later Jesus is still wearing the same robes... i can tell u that as the world has turned so too has heaven grown...

our greats up thea wait till its there turn to return.. we got enuf time to make this a place.. that one day jesus can return to without been scared of his lifes sacrafice been a waste like it may have been seen in some eyes.. if u think about it.. it wasnt so we could keep sinning.. it was so we could keep living...making mistakes so we can keep growing learning the leasons as ta y were here.. sub consiously i know ur knowing this is a possibility

and now..

u wanna know me? i know u do.. look in my direction fuck dont stare now! just listen
and what do u see..??? with those ears? what do u hear with ur eyes.. i say this to u coz i know u soo fucking confused!! u c the thing is im pretty.. clear bout this shit.. i now know im not crazed...but i can see beyond what you do. i can see ryt through to ur soul... u dont believe me do you.. well guess what i see further than anyone has seen before..
i had a dream i was walking through the Gods own garden.. yet i was awake so they told me it was a delusion.. so what!! dream when u awake fuckas.. and u deluded ..fuck drs..mental lacking in faith fucks! what eva happend to the ability to astral travel? ha not reality.. ill prove them all wrong one day!

coz i c u 2 ryt behind my back
standing in the doorway waiting for me to turn my head
its weird
but im not scared to put this here..
im jus waitng for real doors to open.. im gnna kick those fucking doors down
i wish it were now..

hows that for a taste of reality?!

Diamondsez xo

a REALramble 4 u

this is the easy part.. the hard part of this heart is still so far from sight ..but  i know its gonna be one day wen i have to face the facts...this is not right hea.. my life..my life i live is a fake ...in reality i make the most of what ive got.. beyond that is what i really want.. beyond whats here i have no fear.. i know for what im striving but i cant seem to change the gears to get this life im driving outa hea.
you havent lost me u got me weneva u need me..its me thats lost..ive lost the way outa here.
infact at this stage..im hiding for the greater good of me..i cant tell u even lightly just half of what i want to say.its heavy.. a weight i want to share with the world... if only i was able to with out been classed as missing something... something as simple a sanity... im already labeled schitzophrenic..downgraded now to psychotic...ill tell u if u dont tell the drs about this shit im hiding..haha im not crazy jus have sum things that weigh on my mind ....it wasnt that long ago that i was gonna take myself outa hea..but im living for the greater good of me.. the good side to life when i dont have to hide this will come to be... i know this ..infact i hear my 'voices' telling me the truth behind this body i like to call the bars.. this prison cell i fell into.. is locked from the inside.. thats ryt ..i locked the doors.. i locked myself in hea.. i can get out.. all i gotta do is turn that key thats gonna make me free .. a better me.. will show if i could just tell someone.. the truth.. yet i know so many know.. its just how sum may react if i spoke it out.. loud ..im gonna shout it soon..... we can all be free... if we can jus see.. a few simple truths.. u all locked ur doors just like me.. u all hiding something.. its ur internal freedom.. its wealth beyond belief... its how we could have real world peace..ur piece to play is finding truthful inner peace..in ur soul.. find this.. its important.. i gotta find myne.. we all gotta find it.. its  wea the life of the spirit lives.. the soulspace beyond mind beyond physical...beyond time..the sky is the limit......or should we keep living outa sight outa mind ?!?!?!

a ramble 4 u
Diamondsez xo