Wednesday 29 June 2011

as promised...poetry

this first one was written 15/10/09
others undated but im sure its '09 stuff until the last one....

take note word of the day; WITHIN! :)


{a new book
a new begining
a new journey}

a task but such a journey
to continue to write
when i cant even talk to you

...

im so drained and im not quite myself
now that ur not around
i could say i dont know what i feel
when really iknow quite well what ive found

a new sence of self
myself
to be in the future
a self truth .. never alone
coz i have myself within
more than before
 i'll know
infact
now this is it
im aware
this desision
to be alone
is the better road
4 my within.. self.

4 a way to begin
and go and grow
to get rid of ur pain
insane by you,
thats not my life
not my road
im not gonna stand on ur road
you can travel alone
or with someone else
but it wont be me
involved in ur rain ..pure pain,
im not gonna stubble anymore on my road
im not gonna stumble along
i'll be fine
this shining sun
is mine
myself within!



/////////

beautiful musical notes
floating in my airwaves
for each day
could i have seen
could i have heard (this)
without you
beautiful musical notes


////////

can i ever
look at you the same
see in the good again
within ur name

can i ever
take away the blame
see in the good again
within ur shame

/////

branded within
standing without
how to win
when in this predicament

how not to fall
when to complete
with such a grace,
patients and place

inside fighting wild
no longer a child,
lost and incomplete
wanting to cut this ribbon
walk through this,
knowing all would be forgiven

is it eva gonna happen
so walk tall
i hear the voice speak,
within my disgrace
embraced

to be reliving (reborn)
amongst tortured coils
of the living
still i watch the sun rise
and know it wont be our demise

///

begging for true love
down put please ur sin
we are living,
at a cost
but need not,
it be a loss

/////and ryt now..

thus.. love the real self..
of your person.. human BEING
be who in which u were born
a soul for growth upon lands
u are more than wats wrong
u are more than whats right
u are real here and now
and tonight
please remember
life is beyond earths pain
yes be-yond
youth in mind
yearn for more
in ur name
of this time
we are not wrong
we are beings in waiting
for much much more
love peace and harmony
within ur reach


Diamondsez xo

i know i promised poetry..but.. this wats been coming to me..

i wanna be me and know ive sed tym and tym again i dont.. im telling u now i do...
coz of wat i can do so easily i gana make a fool outa all of u.. who think i dont now know nothing..
i know so so much more than ne of the rest of you oh no..
u wondering if ill get to the point soon na dont plan on it at all so put up with that this is just my expression thing before u ask im as good as the man named EM... my voice from the begining.. who loves me toooooooooooo
ive neva let out to so many people..
all about my insane tym up in my brain things were pretty funny..
but my 1st "voice" spirit friend was yeah what i sed before heas that verse all ova again but in a differnet way cant u see im fine but i think its aabout tym i explaind my life in these lines... sooo "shorty.." he sings to me  "..i love you..." but this is all i wrote ha!
so.. all u readin this reading all i wrote..
this all i can do when i aint got a  label (record label that is) to sign my insane brainy plan plane plain Plato plate so take these words and watch this happen ryt writing ryt from the begining i state i am the woman eminem... so u wondering why this way.. i say its all i got but its not all i got all at the same time...

 bless those who are stil there after all the insanity of me but i wouldnt be this spirit without what happened to me.. GOD i praise u for the cards u gave me i can only hope im playing them ryt.. and response being YES .. GOD YES this is RYT WRITTEN writting my fight ...

so wrong in this place but i face the worst thing to make a change that ull all understand in the LORDS biggest plan.. me up thea next to em .. no more invisible friends its tym those spirit projections in my evryday took a new look at this thing called diamond or as i used to say die mind but thatss no more what i want, wantn what ive got to become visible to everyone so if ur confused think about the echos u hear i know uve all heard me speak in ur ears! telepathy my friends is a real thing its just no one talks about the posibility that if we used more than 5% of our brain power what could be possible

 by the way wen u read this put some marshal mathers on and see if it works to the beat.. its a test find the song i was inspired by when i wrote this absolute fire writing in the devils dimise ill take this evil and turn the devil / lived into last life in this evil shit hell to ever stand ive talked to the devil and he wants to be a good man.. again a chance at life should one give.
. jesus for our sins and the devil seems to live satan here i write for u natas i will now call u.

 and say good bye the past i hear you cry join my revolution written on mirrors to get this shit out its seems a bunch of weirds yeah u heard ryt weird words if they can y cant i too put a whole lotta shit in this place and see if i can cause a riot in the name of peace oooooooooooo

hahahah whats the "o's" for?
 the o's are for affect im an effect thats gonna affect ya face and how u face the world ur everyday wil change once u now know my name its diamond yo yo yo haha :)
as happy as the slap i gave that men wen he had to say tha lack of trust coz of my past and reputation found i got my ass actual my neck strangle blacking out and hell .."miss this bitch now".. uve lost who ?,.... ..
..the best BITCH in the fucking world "GANGSTA" ??? ah na issac states "too pretty to be gangsta"
LMFAO im crazy does that make me normal in the current world we find we are all so all-one.al/one. try been me i have spirit friends.. and a lable of phycotic! but a kid i was that saw auras until i seven and now they wnna tell me i cant have an invisible friend at the age of 25? haha
they are now puting 2yr old childern on anti phycotic medication for that very fact seriously what are we teaching these pepole whoa re in control of what our brains are meant to be... why cant these kids get spirtual help instead a pill for a GOD GIVEN SKILL so so wrong ill be puting all my fights against thes drs into abook DRS take alook infact i myt just email the community menal health team my link and see what comments i get..
it took 6 male DRS and NURSES to hold me down and sedate me inject this into ur own vains u suckers u lacking direction its called ur soul.. holistic medicine would tell u u are so so wrong with what u labeling .. its people we are not a mental fucking illness did u ask what i know ohh i have faith in the lord but u betta not talk to him thats insane bitch..
 u myts well be the devil tryna tell me i aint got no soul.. u wrong DR ASTON i tell u y ask abitch thats sic if it ok to give her a label /// i was so sick of been in that room i just agreed with anything u sed..
 and then al of a sudden i was schitzophrenic and if this seems like i still am na its just if id been given the chance to be understood my family wouldnt think im still a mad bitch.. wen ryt now i put ur asses on fire id fire u if i was GOD!!!!
and guess what i am real at this and this is a real story in brief .. just wait for the book i requested my medical records and it sez i took heroin u fucking lyers did u eva ask me if that was real or do u think u can put nething in my permanent records ive neva touch that fucking shit im that stupid fuck what did u think i was nieve that id neva look into what u were writing about me..
well i have a copy of all of it except for the shit that u think i cant handle hahaha my records and u still hiding some from me. o well at 3 and a half inches thick i  think  ill be reading that shit oh yea and ill be looking into the privacy law as to what u can withhold from a labeled bitch this shit bout me i have every ryt to have it!!! im gonna get it too.. coz i got a point to prove! listening now im mad at u but not insane yea rediagnosed as a temopary illness of phycosis but its not gonna last according to the drs up hea in aucks!
i dont wanna leave u readers thea in the middle of my angry rant!
but i myyt just have ta!
i needa go and do some yoga to rebalance my energies whoops should believe thats even possible myt be a part of my label.. assholes! im gonna get on tv and talk about this! so watch ur moves a 2yr old on pills so so wrong!
and if u wondering how i no that it was onthe 6oclok news
and it seems im not finished yet... just waiting for a positive one poetry i wasnt even aloud a pen in the high needs unit of the mental place!
how was i sposed ta get out what i wanted.. i couldnt ah so what happened instead i spoke it well yeah in that drug fuckt state it didnt make much sense but now been sane i got lyrical ability to be this expression for all those who be in my position or who will be in the near future!

" high functioning!" they called me and i always will be try my height of functioning when im not insane id be worryed u little drs in ur narrow trained minds diamonds hea and this is whats to be said ...truth!
they asked me once "do u hear voices?" my response " if my thoughts are voices ...yes i do?!" they let me outa hospital that day.. defeat.. they to gave me bak my handbag with my oil and pin!! hahahahaah defeat again im gona beat u bastard reatard.. ur the ones who need a label that kills ur respect for urself!!!!! im diamond and ive figured u lot out drs
i gota go.. ill be positive next time.. just been dying to get this out!
weight on shoulders no more
thank you

Diamondsez xo

Tuesday 28 June 2011

freestyle writing from early june '11

and you thort u knew me
you didnt think id do this now did you

fighting fires in the places of random words
-birds flying past my eyes
-crying dying inside..wondering why... do i find this life aint mine?
gotta live it tho.. just for a lil more tym to conquer the battle of this minefield, (reeled) in wot others said.. making this the last laugh in all of ya heads..
and a smile on ur face..brings me outa space
4 real ... takingup the waste of these thinking downward spiral games.. im not playing but yip {yes} i will be saying and staying and paving my way with the little that ive got here in my day.
skills, drills.. drip feed the exicution of the destiny..my word polution.. loud..
understanding .. making ya ears ring..heads think .. souls sing
here i give what i can bring
over to the next line..
wine.. and wondering why birds fly?
seriously not giving a shit.. we all die.. up to the skies they say one day we will all be!

the other nyt...


u think 2000 and 11 yrs later Jesus is still wearing the same robes... i can tell u that as the world has turned so too has heaven grown...
our greats up thea wait till its there turn to return.. we got enuf time to make this a place.. that one day jesus can return to without been scared of his lifes sacrafice been a waste like it may have been seen in some eyes.. if u think about it.. it wasnt so we could keep sinning.. it was so we could keep living...making mistakes so we can keep growing learning the leasons as ta y were here.. sub consiously i know ur knowing this is a possibility


and now..

u wanna know me? i know u do.. look in my direction fuck dont stare now! just listen
and what do u see..??? with those ears? what do u hear with ur eyes.. i say this to u coz i know u soo fucking confused!! u c the thing is im pretty.. clear bout this shit.. i now know im not crazed...but i can see beyond what you do. i can see ryt through to ur soul... u dont believe me do you.. well guess what i see further than anyone has seen before..
i had a dream i was walking through the Gods own garden.. yet i was awake so they told me it was a delusion.. so what!! dream when u awake fuckas.. and u deluded ..fuck drs..mental lacking in faith fucks! what eva happend to the ability to astral travel? ha not reality.. ill prove them all wrong one day!

coz i c u 2 ryt behind my back
standing in the doorway waiting for me to turn my head
its weird
but im not scared to put this here..
im jus waitng for real doors to open.. im gnna kick those fucking doors down
i wish it were now..

hows that for a taste of reality?!

Diamondsez xo

Saturday 25 June 2011

a REALramble 4 u

this is the easy part.. the hard part of this heart is still so far from sight ..but  i know its gonna be one day wen i have to face the facts...this is not right hea.. my life..my life i live is a fake ...in reality i make the most of what ive got.. beyond that is what i really want.. beyond whats here i have no fear.. i know for what im striving but i cant seem to change the gears to get this life im driving outa hea.
you havent lost me u got me weneva u need me..its me thats lost..ive lost the way outa here.
infact at this stage..im hiding for the greater good of me..i cant tell u even lightly just half of what i want to say.its heavy.. a weight i want to share with the world... if only i was able to with out been classed as missing something... something as simple a sanity... im already labeled schitzophrenic..downgraded now to psychotic...ill tell u if u dont tell the drs about this shit im hiding..haha im not crazy jus have sum things that weigh on my mind ....it wasnt that long ago that i was gonna take myself outa hea..but im living for the greater good of me.. the good side to life when i dont have to hide this will come to be... i know this ..infact i hear my 'voices' telling me the truth behind this body i like to call the bars.. this prison cell i fell into.. is locked from the inside.. thats ryt ..i locked the doors.. i locked myself in hea.. i can get out.. all i gotta do is turn that key thats gonna make me free .. a better me.. will show if i could just tell someone.. the truth.. yet i know so many know.. its just how sum may react if i spoke it out.. loud ..im gonna shout it soon..... we can all be free... if we can jus see.. a few simple truths.. u all locked ur doors just like me.. u all hiding something.. its ur internal freedom.. its wealth beyond belief... its how we could have real world peace..ur piece to play is finding truthful inner peace..in ur soul.. find this.. its important.. i gotta find myne.. we all gotta find it.. its  wea the life of the spirit lives.. the soulspace beyond mind beyond physical...beyond time..the sky is the limit......or should we keep living outa sight outa mind ?!?!?!

a ramble 4 u
Diamondsez xo

Wednesday 22 June 2011

and another

one by one... and here i bleed hear my sigh hear me cry..didnt mean to depress ya on ur second visit to me but listening to the foo fighters ryt now...or can join my riot free revolution freedom fighters join the battle for freedom follow me and see what we can make of this!!!!

the words come to soon..im free to decide

ill make sure ur a part of this new life too
'if u want to, that is
making it real foreva we will be here and heard in history

making this a space for me to be do u want to join me
come on
come on
come on

state ur place and we will all be history in this postion.. love it or hate this ull c the making of a great.. i swear im not faking this and if ur wondering to read this as a rap or a just rock its rock if u didnt get the hint at the start!
if u think this is not the making of a star at all ur sooooooo wrong coz i can sing as well my friend..
we can win this scene  of disaster.. we just all have to believe..
just wait and we can all sing this truth to the world to the youth miss guided as they may be trust this as a place of safety this is pleasant modern poetry...... trust in faith and we will all see

peace be with you
xo diamondsez

p.s oldskool.. it will get better  and ill be her often so keep up xo



"i sing because of u..i write, in hope ill make it to the edge of the sunrise..where we stand with love in our hearts, and pain in our past... our future shall be born.. on the next train home...never loose sight of the vertical horizons...if that were a possibility.. then mayb i would be..beyond where i stand,here.. on my own. yet i dont fear 'alone' when i have you..although distantly..we still see..the edge of that sunrise becoming nearer...soon it will be..as we walk each day .. one step closer.. we are getting there..in this faith,i believe.. and of our stories we will talk and remember the individual track on which we each played.. as we faught for the dream life to be alive and lived in.. "

poetry is expression..in its purest form..words,.. bound by an emotion of any sense.. be that rap or folk...music of any kind amplifies the affect of poetic expression


thats me.. freedom at its best xo

this is all about my poetry..sometimes i rap. words only.. wonders created..welcome!

so im sick of listening to the music and notdoing nething with what ive got, as an introduction i write nice poetry that could be sung to folk music and then i write raps..so if u can bear that.. welcome..ull also have to excuse my spelling/slang!
so to start ryt now i feel like a rap is comming to me.. but i want to explain a bit first..i will be going bak through my books and books of poetry and blogging it in here ill let you know when its an old lot of words or just a freestyle..or whateva it may be! please comment good or bad let me know..im always up for whats gonna help one improve.
also if u have any questions bout me or what im doing writing this ..just ask..im not easily offended so more than happy to respond when i can...

if u pass this test and u accept those terms and conditions of being here i must say welcome to u..
if u think ud do it better maybe u should piss off and let me be me.. im hea for a reason if u ant found ur reason nd u looking in my direction.. maybe u should find u..inside that is ..how bout u ask that "man in the sky" as u say! i think u mean the maker of all, so find that all puposefull position and find ur higher ground to stand on b4 u go looking in my direction and tryna shove me down the drain..coz it aint gonna work so get used to me been here, oh and excuse the loud music and bad language this is me wen im in this flow of freedom to speak.. spoken making a potion u cant refuse..u want higher come to me ..ill take u beyond the air..where theres none..like no gravity either, but we stil be flying higher than all this shit.. so come with me for a ride through the darkest bright skies.


peace to all.. there will be more
xo diamondsez